Another Year Left Behind, A New One Starting

I'm not really a nostalgic, touchy-feel-y person. 

Years come and go and that's how it's always been. 

I don't usually make goals for the new year, but this year I feel like I should. 

This year was arguably a better year than 2013. 

I've found who I am, in the sense of likes, dislikes, tastes, and preferences.

That's important to me.

Why?

Because two years back, I was not a person. 

Indeed, I was a human who went about her daily things, interacted with others, and did her school work but I was not a fleshed out person in any sense. I didn't have a favorite movie. I didn't really have a favorite color. I knew nothing of music besides what I'd heard on the radio. 

I was a person who straightened her hair because I wanted to have straight, slick hair so badly like the other girls.  I was a person who tried to dress to impress others. 

That was while I was still attending my local school. 

At the end of 2012, I'd had enough of not learning anything but the same things we'd been learning 2 or 3 years back. So I dropped out and started to attend online school.

And slowly, I became a real person.

I became obsessed with the Hobbit movie after seeing it in theaters, and that soon opened the gateway to my love for actors, cinematography, & soundtrack music. 

I stopped straightening my hair. I quite liked how my natural curls looked.

By chance, with my free time during a school day (which is considerably shorter than public ones, in which we get twice as much done in half the time) I looked up Owl City videos and fell in love with Adam's music. And through doing that, I found more music I loved.

I had likes now. I had favorite things. 

I stopped caring about what others thought of me.

My fear of public speaking that I'd had back in public school diminished to nothing. I could stand up in front of a packed auditorium now and feel no fear like I used to.

I pranced around an arcade with my friend laughing like an idiot without a care in the world. 

2013 & 2014 were years of unearthing who I really am. I have no doubt that 2015 will be the same. It's odd sounding probably, to hear somebody say that they have to find out who they are. But I do. It's a quiet thing, that I don't think anyone else has noticed.

It's funny.

I used to hate the rain, when my hair was straightened. I was worried it'd get wet and dry back in the curls I hated so.

Now I love the rain. Who needs an umbrella? =)

Anywho, here's my little list of things I'd like to do this year.

• Be healthier. Get off the computer & do something, whether it's something as simple as taping up pictures in my room, walking around outside taking pictures, or actually doing some exercise.
• Try to go as many days as I can without sugar. I don't eat a ton of sugar anyways, but I do think cutting out things like Cocoa Krispies in the mornings, and treats in the afternoon can help me with the above goal.
• Socialize more. This sounds kind of stupid I guess, but I'll be honest, I don't do it a lot. You could blame the fact that I do online school, but they do field trips and open houses. The thing is, I just need to attend them. :P
• Become friends with somebody who loves LoTR/TH. Okay so this is on my bucket list, but I'd quite like to achieve it in 2015. I am so eternally grateful to my friend for forever putting up with my Hobbit ranting. I feel tremendously horrible though that she has to sit through my ramblings. 
• Save enough money to buy myself a new camera. Or, at the very least, save enough money throughout the year so that I can buy people decent gifts when it's their birthdays/a holiday. :/
• Meet up with my friend and take a ton of silly pictures. For a while now I've wanted to do one of my walls decked out in pictures I've taken, and pictures of friends. My new printer is able to print actual photo sheets, so I'm hoping to achieve this.
• Make use of those lovely mall photo-booths. Goes along with the thing above, but my friend and I had the greatest time using a Photo-Booth and I'd love to do it again. Multiple times, if we could. xD
• Have a LoTR/TH complete marathon. Twenty hours of film, baby. Don't even think I won't do it. 
• Have a positive attitude & go-with-the-flow attitude. I'll admit, I pout like a toddler when things don't go my way. I am not a person comfortable/used to change, but this year my goal is to suck it up, plaster a smile on my face, and just deal with whatever comes my way.

*twiddles thumbs*

I think that's pretty much it. 

Not a tremendously stellar list, but I quite like it. =)

Here's to hoping 2015 is a good year, with little sorrow, and few trifling events.